This is one of those life posts, so if you're looking for law or books, you'll have to come back later this week.
I'm a couple steps into a journey that I don't want to be on. It has been an excruciating four days...and it's not over. I'm not sure when it will be over. One of those times when you look up verses like Psalm 56:8, so you can cling to the promise that all the tears aren't in vain because God sees them and collects them. Also the promise from Psalm 126:5 that those who sow in tears will reap in joy.
As I start this journey I don't want to be on, I have made a vow. I will do whatever it takes to make this matter. To be open to God to change me. To trust that He is in control even when I cannot see Him in the situation. There's a line from a song that says we can trust His heart even when we can't see His hand.
That's where I commit to be. Even as I rail my questions at the sky. Scream why? Where are You? I don't understand. God already knows my emotions. I know He can handle my verbalizing them. Look at what He let Abraham, Moses and David say to Him.
So I will ask my questions. Seek His heart. And trust His character and heart even when I can't see Him.